Day 57

OK, yeah, I haven't been doing CAD.  I got off of it for a few weeks and just haven't had the inclination to start again. 

I've been job hunting and to be honest, I'm a bit stressed out over that.  When I'm stressed, I turn to food for comfort.  I know it. You know it. We all know it.  At least I'm aware of what's going on and I'm facing it honestly. 

The good news is I haven't gone completely crazy.  I'm still eating just meals even if those contain carbs.  Not really snacking or overeating like before.  And, the food cravings are still under control. 

My plan is to get back to it once my life settles down a bit.  I've got a few prospects and my stress level is easing.  If I start before the new year, great, but I know the plan is to begin again on New Year's Day. 

So if you've been following me, please don't give up.  There will be more posts coming soon. 

Day 44 (I think)

I've been a bit busy so I haven't posted much.  But to be totally honest, I just don't like admitting to everyone that I'm still not back on the CAD.  I have my reasons (and excuses), the most pressing being both last weekend and this weekend, we've got company. 

I know, there are days between those weekends and yes, I could have gotten back to it but I didn't.  But at least I haven't been going completely hog-crazy.  The good news is my carb cravings still aren't like they were before I started CAD and I'm still not food-obsessed like I was. 

My plan is to start again on Monday.  Things will be settled down again and menus will be a bit more predictable.  Hopefully, soon, I'll have a new job to help me get into a real routine again.

Until then, I'm going to enjoy this little respit and the cookies too. ;)

Day 41-Not So Bad

Today was Weight-Average day and I'm very relieved to say I only gained back 1.5 pounds. I'm sure that will come off this week pretty easily. I was afraid it would be much more.

Tomorrow I begin again.  Never give up. Never surrender!

Meals don't look too bad considering.  Notice I started out good anyway. ;)

Breakfast:  Mini egg omelet with cheese, bacon bits and salsa coffee with cinnamon Cool Whip.
Lunch:  Chili salad made with a flour tortilla, salad mix, cheddar cheese, onions, fat free Catalina, homemade chili with beans, salsa, and sour cream.  A couple thumbprint cookies.
Dinner:  Leftover Pad Thai & panang curry with rice, a few cookies.

Day 40

Please forgive me.  It's been a busy few days and I haven't been by the computer much.

Well, remember I said I fell off the wagon?  I not only fell off, I went running as fast as possible down the lane away from that wagon, over the hill, and through the forest!  Yes, I'm saying I have completely gone over to the dark side.  It's been carbo overload for the past few days. 

It's a combination of stress and holiday planning.  I am aware of what I'm doing so that's a positive note, I suppose.  My plan is to get back on that horse tomorrow.  Begin anew with the new week.

Saying that, I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving and are ready for the next round of holiday parties, shopping and excitement.

Me?  I am feeling good and know that I am very capable of returning to my normal eating again.  Guess it's normal for a junky (that's funny...junk food) to have a few set backs.  The important thing is to learn and get back on the program. 

Day 37

Ya know, as much as I do love me some Asian food, the day after leads to puffy fingers.  I guess as I'm getting a little older, soy sauce and salt are starting to affect me a bit.  I don't really like how the excess water makes me feel.  Fortunately, I'm not a huge salt fan to begin with so this is easily fixed.

Body is back to it's new normal.  I didn't wake up hungry.  My hunger kicks in around 10:00 am every day.  Just in time for lunch. 

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving.  I'm curious to see how I do.  To be honest, my holiday cravings are never satisfied when I have lunch at the in-laws.  Their menu is significantly different from my family Thanksgivings.  I don't know if this will trigger a desire to snack or if this time, because I will be eating my Reward Meal, if I'll be ok.  In the past, both Hubs and I tend to eat fairly light and then we go out later for dinner.  I know that sounds a bit odd but it's true.  I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

I decided to make some gluten free cookies for my Mohter-in-law.  She makes pies for Thanksgiving meaning she can't eat them.  Here is my recipe for Gluten Free Oatmeal Peanut Butter Cookies.  I have to say, they are pretty tasty. 
http://tenderfoothearth.blogspot.com/2012/11/cookies-for-turkey-day.html

Breakfast:  Coffee with cinnamon Cool Whip.
Lunch:  Reward Meal:  BBQ Chicken, fried potatoes & onions, baked beans, corn, and an oatmeal peanut butter cookie. 
Dinner:  (don't remember...didn't finish this post due to company)...

Day 36-Doctor Visit

This morning, I went for my yearly checkup.  Since they were going to take blood, I had to fast from midnight last night.  Not a bad thing for someone who went on a carb spree yesterday.

All went well with the doctor.  I really like mine.  He's got a fantastic bedside manner and really listens when we talk.  He's also willing to try alternative ideas to traditional medical practices, which I really appreciate.  I prefer to fix any problems naturally if at all possible and he supports this.  Heck, I even told him about the CAD books and he questioned me in depth and then wrote it down to suggest to other patients.  Yup, got a good doc there!

The Pad Thai didn't turn out very well so I basically ate five shrimp, an egg roll, and 3 steamed dumplings.  Oh, and the chocolate pie.  Let's not forget that.  I'm sure I'll probably end up a bit hungry tonight but that's ok.  To quote one of my favorite fictional characters:


After all, tomorrow is another day!

I just love the smirk on her face!

Breakfast:  None for me today!
Lunch:  Sour creamed chicken and cabbage. 
Dinner:  Reward Meal:  Egg roll with mustard, steamed dumplings, homemade Pad Thai,chocolate pie and Sprite/cherry vodka/grenadine cocktail. 

Day 35-Fell off the Proverbial Wagon

Official Monday weekly weigh-in...drum roll please...lost another pound! That's six total!  WOOHOO!  VERY excited about that!

Yes, today I fell off the wagon.  It was the first day I've been alone since the funeral and dealings with all of that.  Today apparently was MY day to 'lose it'. 

We all have our moments of weakness.  This was mine.  I was feeling frustrated, sad and emotionally drained.  Not a good combo for any type of addiction.  I needed soothing. No ands, ifs or buts about it.  I tried to talk myself out of it but it didn't work.  So, I gave myself permission so it wasn't too bad but still, my carb desire was definitely in the drivers seat.  Here is how it turned out.  As I said, looking at it on "paper", it's not that bad.  But I know the out of control feeling that went along with it so for me, it wasn't good.

Breakfast:  Coffee.
Lunch:  Spaghetti with meat sauce & ranch, garlic toast, cookies, iced tea.
Dinner:  BBQ Pork Chop, fried potatoes, baked beans, peas.
Snack:  Nerds candy, airhead candy, Riesen carmel, pork chop, pasta with ranch & Parmesan.

Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.  I take pride in the fact that I stayed true to my journey here and told the truth about my day.  If nothing else, I want to show myself and anyone reading that we do have bad days, no one is perfect, but we can move forward, even if it's tiny, little baby steps!